Friday, October 29, 2004
This is a song that really relates...to the photo..of our trip to Pulau Besar, Mersing...After those six torture months of not being able to be together...duh?!!
She was afraid to come out of the locker
She was as nervous as she could be
She was afraid to come out of the locker
She was afraid that somebody would see
One, two, three, four, tell the people what she wore
It was an itsy bitsy teenie weenie yellow polka-dot bikini
That she wore for the first time today.
An itsy bitsy teentie weenie yellow polka-dot bikini
So in the locker she wanted to stay.
Two, three, four, stick around we'll tell you more
She was afraid to come out in the open
And so a blanket around she wore
She was afraid to come out in the open
And so she sat bundled up on the shore
Two, three, four, tell the people what she wore
So in the blanket she wanted to stay.
Two, three, four, stick around we'll tell you more
Now she is afraid to come out of the water
And I wonder what she's gonna do
Now she is afraid to come out of the water
And the poor little girl's turning blue
Two, three, four, tell the people what she wore
So in the water she wanted to stay.
From the locker to the blanket
From the blanket to the shore
From the shore to the water
Yes there isn't any more.
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Tuesday, October 19, 2004
I really don't know what exactly is wrong today (is it me? or him or us perhaps)...but when he said that I was kinda...emm thanks for being honest at least...yup! I'm hurt...no doubt...but I get the point.
I was supposed to be the one with the PMS...ok maybe it was his day to be upset(yeah...yeah...that is allowed...a rainy day besides sunshine)...but I don't know what the reason...was he damned upset.
I still could stand the phrase..."Who are you to stop me?" but the conclusion...I hate that (knowing that he will always end up with a conclusion that he made up...with the ugliest imagination in his mind, god!)...he mention something that I had no intention to do...anyway, and what he said was kinda harsh to me... I translate whatever he said means he doesn't trust me...or I'm still having a fling with this guy (which I don't care anymore...and I don't give a damned!!!)
I'm tired...I don't wanna fight...I also translate his words as "I don't want you to go because so and so is around and I hate him"...If only he could just said it...It would at least doesn't end up in this kinda things...and I will glad to say "OK...sayang, I rather had dinner with you anyway"
Hell...whatever...I'm such a mess huh?
Friday, October 15, 2004
I'm havin' a jolly good time all those time when I'm gone...(I mean when I'm not writing this blog)...there's so much things happening around me, HIMSELF...he is the person with significant impact on me.
I mean after being away for half a year...(heh..heh..exaggerating huh?)...what I really wanna do is spend every possible available time with him...movies,dinner,talking,lunch,travelling...sometimes doing nothing or just being silly.
I dunno...I realized that I'm independant when I'm alone...but I could be clinging when he's around...maybe because I'm not be able to be with him all the time(I'm not complaining about his job for sure)...truth is I just can't get enough of him.
But somehow I got some kinda nasty unneccesary mood swing...like feeling like not talking to him...or get over sensitive over small-small thangs...or annoyed him by saying "NOTHING"...when there's really something in my head...
Ughhh...I didn't mean to hurt him but maybe I got some kinda brain mulfunctioning or dysfunctional mental...whatever...anyway, he is... thanks god kinda really patience with me...put up with me...(I really appreciate that sugar and I'm sorry for being grumpy some sort).
I guess we are still in the getting to know stage...the part which you couldn't expect just by looking at that person...the part yang tersirat...emm maybe that's the word...well that's what makes the relationship going anyway...discovering your other half...little by little...
Anyway...I love him still...I mean he is everything he is now...good or bad...I will accept it...They say good friends bring out the best in each other...so here I am...ready to go.
Now that he went back to his hometown...I miss him around...I was kinda of getting used that he is here with me the past two weeks...I felt really sad and cold here...like when the time he was going to work...hmmm...I'm fragile...and I loathe it!!!
