Monday, March 22, 2004
21st March was another history here..another history for me..It was my first time ever..I never thought that..life is as difficult as this..making decision is never easy..being certain about what you choose is another problem..
Well I guess each and everyone of us has the very reasons why on earth that u make such a decision..we may think in depth or sometimes..some people may think just how to save their own butts..others..with such purity in mind..of trying hard to help others..others might think far beyond what the eyes can preceived..it might be revenge for the guy next to me and inheritence to her for the lady in front..heh..heh..who knows...well I could list down a millions of reasons..
Whatever the reasons you had..remember that in the end of the day..never.. just because that u think that your ideology is right let loose your bestfriends..because now that u realised that u are not going in the same directions..there are cases when husband and wife stop talking..because they are just different..after so many years of blissful marriages..or curse the people who walks in front of you just because she/he being different..NEVER
It's sad that..
it takes years to build..but only seconds to destroy..
It's sad that..
we always point our fingers to others..never to ourself..
Hell what am I trying to say is...just respect on others opinion..remember that it's just not our job to judge people who is good or bad..The Almighty knows all..but not us..and never will us know all..
There is always a good and a bad sides of people..Its the ying and yang ..It just what we need so that life would not be plain boring..Its just the ingredients that we needs so that life will become interesting..
So why on earth did we fight just to have everyone to have the same ideas..because I dont think I will appreciate it if there's ten of me..who looks..thinks..smells..and everything looks the same as me..hey that will be boring!
Friday, March 19, 2004
It's Sunday the last day of our trip in Mersing...I slept late last night talking to himself all the detailed of the trip..felt like I never gonna be able to wake up and leave the bed...My head felt like being hammered by loud noise..I tried to recognize where on earth did that noise came from...lazily pick up the phone a wake up call from the guys...
"Hey!what time will be breakfast?"
"EMMM...breakfast?" Blurred.....
I felt like I just had a chance to close my eyes and sailed to my own fantasy world..so what the hack that I had to go for breakfast?!!!
"Breakfast?"
"Breakfast from 7.30a.m till 11.00a.m"
"Ok..see u"
And it doesn't stop there..there are several more phone calls..that I'm too lazy to answer..and was picked up by the other two girls..All I could remember was that I did asked them to wake me up when they are done..duh?!!!
Emm last night we went to Linda's house again..akad nikah after isya' prayers..well it some sort of late..the ceremony only begins at half past 9.00...but all went on smoothly..Linda and Lan is now husband and wife..Linda looks great..Hope that she is happy..I just can't help it but wondering what I will look like or what will I felt if I'm in Linda's shoes now...Will I be marrying someone worth marrying with..and will it be Himself..I mean don't get me wrong here..I want it to be him..but who knows what has been destiny for us in the future...?!! Enough bout that here..I hate it that there is so much uncertainty that we must face before we knew what will really happen to us...
We did went to Penyabung one more time that night after the akad nikah ceremony..doing nothing but laughing at each other silly..but we the KLites are so get used to hanging around town Saturday night..that when we had nothing to do..we felt guilty..to just fall asleep early that night..poor us...The wind was blowing quite hard..it was cold out here..luckily someone gotta pee..and there is no toilet there..so we had to go back to the hotel..but then it was already 2.00 a.m..yawned!!!!
We check out..went to Linda's wedding..more photography session..eat some more and by 2.30pm we are out of there..reaching our way home...at last..get lost for several times..on our way back..It's 9.00 when I reach home...sweet home...
I'm tired but just looking at my laundry basket..makes me force myself to do the laundry that night..watch ABP 2003..BORING!!!!! Call himself that I had reached home save and sound...
Wednesday, March 17, 2004
Hiyee..I'm back here..emm..got so much in my head that I would like to pour out..but I just don't have ample time..The trip to mersing and all..Incubus gig..Life is great..YEAH BABEH..
Well..the trip to mersing to Linda's wedding went on well..woke up at 6.30a.m by a phone call..terus bangun because I hadn't pack my things pun..anyway..I just throw in anything I thought necessary..I usually end up with a bag full of things..makeups..undies..towel..although I'll be staying in the hotel..lotsa shirts..and for the akad and wedding of course baju kurung and baju kebaya...Oh forget to tell I'm also responsible to make wake up call to members of the trip..
Members Of this trip;
*Nordin ~ The leader cum driver
*Fa'an ~ The one that suggest that we must embark into this trip
*Romeo ~ "I-got-nuthing-to-do-this-weekends-so-let's-go" guy
*Ani & Fiza ~ Anak dara who really wanna go but to shy to ask..
And of course me...I dont feel good if I didnt go..because I had been knowin Linda for quite long..besides it is an event that I should not let it just passed by...
First call nobody answer..
Second call..emm jangan depa tido mati udah..Fortunately,
"Allo..bangun..bangun dah nam setengah...."
Mumbling..at the other end..."Pukul nam setangah dah....ok..aku bangun..aku bangun.."
Next make my trip to the toilet...yearr right I did manage to get ready in 30 minutes because Nordin is supposed to arrive at 7.00a.m...yawn..yawn..I was darn hungry tough Nordin never mentioned that we will eat first..as we go by ..I felt like sleeping..However my empty stomach stopped me from falling asleep..ARRRGHHH!!!
And suddenly I remember Himself..I promised to give him a call just as we are about to move..but hell..My battery..I think that will not stand long..The red alert light will be on in a few more minutes..so I send him sms instead..telling him I will call him as soon as I arrived in Mersing..because my battery is running low...and of course all the muahhhs..muahhs..
It was 9.00 plus when we arrived Kuala Pilah and had our breakfast..I had my nasi lemak which is a yummy..hmm..I had it one and a half plate..I dunno but lately I do eat a lot..And It really worries me..Nanti GEMOK!!!..HEH..HEH..(a little vain here)..and the journey continues..I did talked to himself when I've finished my breakfast..and then..i can't remember..When I woke up again..we were already in Muadzam..great..about an hour or two to go..I'm getting tired sitting in here..HELP! HELP!
Had to visit Linda first when we reached Mersing by now it was aroud 1.30p.m..and she invited us for lunch..so great..Later Dela joined us..and after we get our tummy satisfied..we checked in into the hotel..I'm actualy damned tired..because doin my routine nite chat with Himself the nite before..The bed looks really inviting though quite small for three person (luckily we are cute bunch of people..hah..ha)..emm..what the hack..let's have some more sleep..zzzzzz
Wake up at 3.30..get ready before we find our way to amuse ourself..went to Mersing small town..went to the jetty..buy some souvenirs..then we went to this place called emm..Penyabung..lotsa cows..and booby trap..Its a small tourist attraction spot..or should I called it a fishing spot..there's a number of chalet..and stalls..but its beautiful..here the sea..the island..its perfect..but something is missing..I wish Himself is here with me..
::I Wish You Were Here ::
(Woo!)
I dig my toes into the sand
the ocean looks like a thousand diamonds
strewn across a blue blanket
I lean against the wind
pretend that I am weightless
and in this moment I am happy, happy
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I lay my head onto the sand
the sky resembles a backlit canopy
with holes punched in it
I'm counting UFO's
I signal them with my lighter
and in this moment I am happy, happy
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
The world's a roller coaster
and I am not strapped in
maybe I should hold with care
but my hands are busy in the air
I say
I wish you were here
I wish you were
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
wish you were here
Wish u were here....UWAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SOB..SOB..
TO BE CONTINUED...........
Friday, March 12, 2004
How Do I Love Thee?
by Elizabeth Barrett Browning
How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of Being and ideal Grace.
I love thee to the level of everyday's
Most quiet need, by sun and candlelight.
I love thee freely, as men strive for Right;
I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise.
I love thee with the passion put to use
In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith.
I love thee with a love I seemed to lose
With my lost saints,--I love thee with the breath,
Smiles, tears, of all my life!--and, if God choose,
I shall but love thee better after death.
I feel really tired lately..I'm going to Linda's wedding tomorrow...hmm more travelling to do..Ok..ok..just found this poem..sounds good so i just paste it here....
I'll update the trip to Mersing later..muahhss....
Before I go..emm here's something interesting..THIS IS MY TYPE OF HEART..best nyer heart of gold..bangga! konon..(idung sket kembang) so ati awak camner..go and take the test..give it a shot babeh!!!
Heart of Gold
What is Your Heart REALLY Made of?
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Wednesday, March 10, 2004
A poem;
Work load are mounting...
With All the clients this and that
Duedate..dateline...haha..go to hell
I'm not gonna write one.....because now emm i only hafta think bout work...Himself send me a bunch of pictures and it really lighten up my days....Emm well of course I'm lying hah...hah..I think about him every now and then..It's been 3 weeks that we had not been seeing each other ...I miss him like hell..It's hell on earth week anyway..damned....
On Monday..well I nearly slept in the office( sunday night) just to get my work done...but did went home around 3.00 a.m..think me..as a workoholic..(ermm how to spell that ehh?)..Poor me I just cant fall to sleep..got so many things in my mind....its due on monday 12.00 noon.....emm hell.. i looked like a total rubbish no make up and bad hair day...just hope that all went well..or i don't just collapsed....i slept for two hours..got sumthin to do..sambung balik nanti..chiow...I went straight back home after work..doze off...miss himself..but too tired to talk to him..poor him...7 missed call i just dont hear anything...n he tried my home number..I woke up..blur and all and dont really know what to say..
Tuesday..collected all the tender docs......emm I can't wait to know how accurate my estimate was..well overall should be ok..im in the middle of all the tenderer who bids..BUT..the client ask us to shortlist the report to the 3 lowest tenderers bid..and guess what? I'm the highest among all of the tenderers...hah..ha..HOLY****
Wednesday...time to tidy up for ISO audit hell..I HATE ISO AUDIT....get my boss to initial all the letters..projects notes...EMM I HATE THIS ...back date..emm anything to save my butt..so that I'm not the one that makes my company to get NCR.(Non Compliance Report)...I also managed to get payments ready for the contarctor..HELL!! I am suddenly the busiest person on earth...hah..hah..exegerating again..hey why I'm mumbling all these boring stuff..terrible me....
Friday, March 05, 2004
I feel every nerve of my body responding..to the excitement..of once again falling in love..everywhere is red..and pink the colours of love is in the air...Well..I thought about not having anyone to celebrate the last valentines..but im wrong...and im so thankful.....that we found each other
emm..well yes it happens quite fast..but its just my intuition..that i trusted so much nowdays...but he used to be someone from my past..whom i knew...but we never spoke to each other..he used to have world of his own which doesnt involves girls....i cant believe that he is the romantic type..who call me love..not just when we are alone..but in front of his friends too..which is a good omen...IM DARN PROUD....hah..ha
Suddenly all the love songs are ours...but kentut yg busuk still busuk ok...no kidding bout that...well thats the reason i abandon my blog..i got something better to do..hah..ha
emm..lets put some love song here................
SUGAR PIE HONEY BUNCH
Oooo sugar pie honey bunch,
You know that I love you,
Oh I can't help myself,
I love you and nobody else,
In and out my life,
You come and you go,
Leavin just your picture behind,
And I kissed it a thousand times,
When you snap your finger,
Or wink your eye,
I come runnin to you,
I'm tied to your apron strings,
There's nothin I can do,
Girl you call your name,
Oh it starts to flame,
Burnin in my heart,
Tearin me apart,
No matter how I try,
My love I just can't hide,
Sugar pie honey bunch,
You know that I'm weak for you,
Oh I can't help myself,
I love you and nobody else,
Sugar pie honey bunch...
muahss..muahss.....I LOVE U JOE!!!
